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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 02:18

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She found it foreign!.

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

One cannot live in the past .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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Where the ultimate outsiders.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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I never cut or harmed myself..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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I said to her

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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I was 9 years of age.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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I have no regrets .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I will be 64.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He resisted the act ,that day.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Im still living with it.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I was very sick at this time too.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But, we were locked up after school.

All the time i was locked up.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I could never make a relationship work though!

What did i know ?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I think the readers, may guess!

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My life is so biszare .

Was to survive, this bastard.

I don,t even have a pension.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She loved him until the end.

As i do to all so called friends.?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

She wouldn,t have been !

I waited trembling.

Put me off passion for life!!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And i lived it daily.

We were not on the streets..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

This is soul school!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Who then, do I blame.?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

So whats the point in blame.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

It was going to be , some day.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She married twice! .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Comes on , in middle age.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Would this be the day?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I was scared of men, in general

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

So, i spoilt her more .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But ive been too sick for many years..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Why did i forgive my father ?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was seconnd youngest,

I write beautiful poetry .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

When she asked me how she looked .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

We all went to grammer schools

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She was in good health!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He knew the spot.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But it wasn’t much.

My family never makes their pension either.

Ive learnt so much.